I have been thinking, is it easier to see the light when you’re in the dark, similarly to how easy it is to see the dark when you’re in the light? Perhaps that is why many of us choose to stay in the dark, that which has become our comfort …To choose one or the other, continuously perpetuating duality, I can see why, I have experienced my own version of why. I have had times when I chose the dark then chose the light, chose the light then chose the dark. I have chosen many things in the past. But perhaps my whole life I was only looking for my own harmony. The balance between the two, the middle path or a path close to the middle path. Do not misunderstand though, this is also difficult in a way. It seems almost impossible, but I see no reason to limit myself-in this aspect, at least. You could say my refusal to limit myself is why I am so indecisive, so uncertain, flighty, difficult to understand, scatterbrained- if you will. I have a lot going on in my head, seeing both sides/ all sides, their reason and place…Perhaps, the reason you cannot understand me is because I do not fit in one box exactly. Even when you think you know me, you peel back another layer and find something new? Why do you limit me when I do not limit myself? Yet, perhaps this is why I do not know myself so well. Because all of the labels that I try out do not always fit me. Childish yet motherly. Cold yet warm. Kind and gentle yet cruel. Perhaps, I just am who I am.